Gosh it feels like these months are going by in a flash. Things have been going pretty well for me as of late, and I have been quite hard at work. While things are still a bit slower on this blog then they used to be, that is specifically because I’m still working on additional political projects. Specifically, I am trying to get a Facebook group set up for Progressive candidates to interact with their supporters and to build a bigger support base for said candidates. Thus far I have got 38 candidates to join on and I am still working towards making this a thing.
This is what happens when the higher ups fuck with those less fortunate than them. Those less fortunate get pissed and decide to take things into their own hands, and they raise hell! I apologize if you don’t care about politics and just want to see me talk about vidya Geamz, but I can’t sit this one out. Although I will still try to get some reviews out. Read more
Another month has passed and… I didn’t actually do all that much writing wise. Three poems, one personal piece, and one re-uploaded review isn’t all that much I know. It feels like every time I sit down to write one of these Site Update pieces, I’m just trying to justify a lack of activity when the truth is that Guardian Acorn just hasn’t been my top priority as of late. That’s not to say I haven’t been doing anything, but a lot of the work I’ve done has been focused on… other projects that I’d like to keep a secret for now. That’s not even taking into account the constant attempts to combat depression. Read more
One may have noticed that there was no September update if one was paying close attention. The reason for that had to pertain to the heavy feeling of burnout that I’ve been experiencing, and the constant struggles to determine the direction of this blog. As I said in my brief update, I’m now sticking to a “whatever the hell I want whenever the hell I want” basis.” This means I’ll be going back to game reviews, as I just don’t have the energy to write about politics at this time. Anyway I’ve decided that I’m going to recap everything I’ve done throughout the past few months as opposed to just the last. Read more
Damn, just realized I’m a bit late on the update piece. Things the past few days have been a bit crazy, which is likely why I just realized today that “oh shit, it’s already the 10th and I haven’t gotten a site update piece out! Well I better fix that. Here’s last month’s article recap. Read more
Last month was notably long and arduous, I have been struggling with my depression relapsing, and most recently, an inability to fall asleep until around 7 AM even with my usual sleep medication. My motivation to play games has been mostly shot and I’ve had difficulty getting myself to write as well. Despite this, my output seems to have been an immense improvement over the previous months. Here is last month’s recap. Read more
Last month I have been trying pretty hard to reach the level of productivity that I’ve previously held on this site. While I definitely got a bit more stuff out than in January, it is also low compared to before that. I will chalk this up to being busier with more stuff and due to getting hit with more than a few hardships during the month of February.
Among these hardships include relapsing into my depression over my ex girlfriend because my current one hasn’t had as much time to see me in person and having my remaining two Twitter accounts suspended and thus cutting me off from a major community I was a part of for five years. I still have a Mastadon account but it’s difficult to get as passionate about that site since I’ve gotten to know many users over the past five years. This basically means I’ve spent most of my time in my Discord server retreated from public view. Read more
I would like to apologize for the lack of activity last month as I have not only been busy with “activist work” (yes I am being intentionally vague about that for a reason) but my depression has been also relapsing throughout last month. I’ve come to realize that I may have put my ambitions too high in regards to activist work. I put together a writing piece longer than some books in regards to the midterms election and maybe I just was expecting a larger view count. Don’t get me wrong, this piece is among my top 10 most viewed articles but I had my hopes up too high that it would go viral.
The issue is that I have a secret project in motion that is likely going to stay secret for a lot of people unless I let them in on it. This has resulted in me putting more time into my secret project than my writing and I have thus fallen behind in article turnout and the daily view count. As such I’m going to make an effort to better balance the two and make sure I still have a fair amount of gaming AND political content for the future. Also I have abandoned the idea of emailing every US congressperson because I already have my hands full as it is. Anyway here is the article recap of last month. Read more
When I started this blog, I intended it as being for little more other than myself. That much has changed as of late given my recent focus on politics. A lot of what I talk about will likely pertain to my 2018 Midterm piece considering just how much of my time spent in the last few weeks was directed towards this piece. It is because of this that the piece you are reading right now did not come out until later; because I needed to take a break.
Admittedly there are a few complications in regards to proceeding with #PinkTsunami. When I finished with that piece I was VERY fired up and ready to take on the world practically. It’s tough to keep channeling pure passion after a rather intense session of burnout but as I’ve said, I do in fact plan to be much more involved in politics. I’m not going to quite writing about games of course but I do plan for there to be a more even split as opposed to one political piece every few months while everything is game reviews.
I should note that I have not started having my midterm piece advertised yet but I likely will soon. Anyway here is last month’s article recap. Read more
So… I was banned from Twitter.
I’m honestly not surprised. I kinda knew this was going to happen considering how prone to abuse Twitter’s report system and how scattershot in its implementation it is. Infamous right wing nutcase Alex Jones was not suspended until he started harassing Jack Dorsey in person despite the fact that Twitter ADMITTED he violated the of service multiple times.
While I kinda saw it coming, I will admit that I am rather frustrated by this. Not frustrated enough to chain myself to Twitter’s front door to block the entrance and call the police mind you, but annoyed nonetheless. Well to be truthful it’s more saddening than anything. Read more
It’s funny how I remember that there was a point in time where these months were just going by so fast yet it now feels like an eternity has passed through each update. I have not been in the best place emotionally as of late. I really don’t want to talk about my failed relationship anymore because it feels wrong to publicize it any further, but I just haven’t been the same since then.
I should be happy right now with so many supportive fans and all the progress I made, but I’m not. Believe it or not, I’ve been trying my hardest to suppress my grief over this failed relationship of mine. It’s always been easier for me to cope with grief when I can just let it out publicly, but I have come to regret making some things regarding her public. I guess that’s just the key difference between us; she never wanted to be brought into this. That’s why I’m not mentioning her by name anymore.
As if that wasn’t enough, being with Twitter for a week made me realize just how dependent on it I truly am. In the period since the breakup, I have since played LISA: The Painful, The Beginner’s Guide, Persona 3, and Saya no Uta. All four of these games have major themes in moving on from past trauma, dependency, and coping with one’s disastrous and alienating fuckups. Due to a conversation I had with some close friends of mine, I have decided to pursue Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. It’s quite clear I need some kinda of treatment, and seeing my step brother as concerned about me as he was made me finally understand it for certain that I need this. Besides, I need this in order to stop all this painful depression. Anyway here is the article recap for last month. Read more