Site Progress & Personal Update: December 2019

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Gosh it feels like these months are going by in a flash. Things have been going pretty well for me as of late, and I have been quite hard at work. While things are still a bit slower on this blog then they used to be, that is specifically because I’m still working on additional political projects. Specifically, I am trying to get a Facebook group set up for Progressive candidates to interact with their supporters and to build a bigger support base for said candidates.  Thus far I have got 38 candidates to join on and I am still working towards making this a thing.

This is what happens when the higher ups fuck with those less fortunate than them. Those less fortunate get pissed and decide to take things into their own hands, and they raise hell! I apologize if you don’t care about politics and just want to see me talk about vidya Geamz, but I can’t sit this one out. Although I will still try to get some reviews out. Read more

Site Progress & Personal Update: November 2019

Another month has passed and… I didn’t actually do all that much writing wise. Three poems, one personal piece, and one re-uploaded review isn’t all that much I know. It feels like every time I sit down to write one of these Site Update pieces, I’m just trying to justify a lack of activity when the truth is that Guardian Acorn just hasn’t been my top priority as of late. That’s not to say I haven’t been doing anything, but a lot of the work I’ve done has been focused on… other projects that I’d like to keep a secret for now. That’s not even taking into account the constant attempts to combat depression. Read more

For National Coming Out Day.

Transition Timeline
Coming out as trans
This picture right here is how I came out as trans. The account is deleted now but I still have a screenshot of it. To think I realized I was trans entirely because of a question on a Q&A site.
What a ride it has been. Despite all the frequent heartache and dysfunction I’ve experienced, I’m still the happiest I’ve ever been right now. All because I’ve got to live as my true self. Going from living as a male to transitioning and living as a woman is like you never showered for 20 years, and the feeling of finally cleaning away all that grime and dirt and resembling a human being for the first time.
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Site Progress & Personal Update: October 2019

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One may have noticed that there was no September update if one was paying close attention. The reason for that had to pertain to the heavy feeling of burnout that I’ve been experiencing, and the constant struggles to determine the direction of this blog. As I said in my brief update, I’m now sticking to a “whatever the hell I want whenever the hell I want” basis.” This means I’ll be going back to game reviews, as I just don’t have the energy to write about politics at this time. Anyway I’ve decided that I’m going to recap everything I’ve done throughout the past few months as opposed to just the last. Read more

Brief Update (Mid-August, 2019)

I have spent the last few weeks thinking some things through, and have come to the conclusion that I will be taking a break from writing for the rest of the month. At the start of next month, I will determine whether or not I need more time before I resume posting. The one thing that I have determined though is that from this point on, my content will return to a “whatever the hell I want whenever the hell I want” basis. Meaning no more schedules (I will try to follow the current schedule but if I miss them, I miss them). I feel like I lost site of what this blog was supposed to be, so it’s time return to its roots.

Site Progress & Personal Update: August 2019

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I have previously mentioned my dilemma of not knowing what direction to take my blog in. I’ve been most recently focused on politics as of late but my game reviews were what made this blog what it was. I’ve been thinking about what direction I wanted to take things, but I think I reached a decision. I’m going to focus specifically on politics at this time, and I’m going to be doing this from now until the United States Presidential Election at least. Whether or not I keep going past that point will likely depend on whether or not Trump wins re-election.

I initially intended this blog as a long shot hope of substituting for an actual career, and maybe that could still happen. But everything is currently falling apart in my country, and if I don’t do literally everything in my power to stop it then I’m not that much better than those who actively support it. That’s not to say that there won’t be anything else, just that the focus will be on politics for a while. Anyway here is last month’s article recap. Read more

Site Progress & Personal Update: June 2019

Last month was notably long and arduous, I have been struggling with my depression relapsing, and most recently, an inability to fall asleep until around 7 AM even with my usual sleep medication. My motivation to play games has been mostly shot and I’ve had difficulty getting myself to write as well. Despite this, my output seems to have been an immense improvement over the previous months. Here is last month’s recap. Read more

Site Progress & Personal Update: May 2019 (Intensity Edition)

Something that I have been frequently telling others as of late is that the past few weeks have been all over the place, and I’ve had some amazing highs and devastating lows. As usual I plan to talk about each of these things but it feels weird nonetheless. I can at least say for certain that the intensity of the previous month means that my life is starting to get going, but thinking about where I’m going to is both exciting and nerve wracking. Anyway here is last month’s article recap. Read more

Site Progress & Personal Update: April 2019 + Patreon Revision (again)

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I need to confess to those who may not have caught on, but the last few months have been a major struggle for me. I have suffered from major burnout after having posted the largest piece of writing I’ve ever written and then dealt with the revelation that a close friend of mine was a manipulative sex pest so things were not going smoothly. It seemed like I was finally started to get back into the swing of things in March as I had a consistent schedule throughout that month until around the 20th where I stopped… almost permanently.

CW: Depression, suicide.

I’ve talked about my depression and suicidal ideation and I’ve made it known that they have been quite intense. It wasn’t until a few weeks ago that I attempted to act on them though. The closest I came was when my ex girlfriend cut off all contact with me and I called 911 to prevent a suicide attempt, and that happened in late April of last year. I was taken to the ER for a few hours then but this time, I was admitted to a psyche ward where I had no access to internet and thus could not talk to most of my friends or work on writing.

So there, it’s not just me being lazy this time. I was legitimately unable to do so. I should probably talk about my experience at this psyche ward but first let’s recap. Read more