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Site Progress & Personal Update: July 2022 (Everything is Fucked Edition)

Well, Roe Vs Wade is gone, and we can expect every single of of out basic human rights to be repealed over the next few years. Meanwhile, the most that Democrats are doing is begging for money and reading poems. It unfortunately looks like things are going to get a lot worse before they get better, and we need to fight to make sure they get better as quick as possible, ideally before they start rolling in the death camps. Just saying, if I get taken away to a death camp, then I won’t be able to write any more game reviews, and I imagine that would be a real bummer to you all.

That being said, I do plan to get some game reviews up this month just to catch my breath. Granted it’s also cause the only primaries this month are in Maryland, so this creates an opening in my schedule. In other words, I’ve finally started writing that NieR Replicant review. Of course, I will be getting back to politics in August cause there’s a fuck ton of primaries there, and I plan to start writing my 25 most important General Elections piece either in late August or early September. I have no idea what I’ll be doing in October. Theoretically I should have free time for more game reviews, but it’s also the lead up to the midterms, and I’m likely going to be anxious as hell about that. Hell at this rate, I may end up writing more political shit than usual in 2023.

Just, holy fuck,. everything is a fucking nightmare right now and I want it to stop. Anyway, here’s my recap of the last few months.

Poem #133: Illusion of the Mind

The Progressive Update (5/6/2022): Roe Vs Wade Repealed, Nina Turner Loses Again, West Virginia Primaries.

The Progressive Update (5/16/2022): Super Tuesday – Midterm Edition

Poem #134: Nightmare

The Progressive Update: (6/3/2022): Fetterman, Summer Lee, McLeod Skinner win, Cisneros loses, California/New Jersey/New Mexico/Iowa Primaries, Alaska Special Election.

Poem #135: Dying Song

The Progressive Update (6/26/2022): Big Wins in California, Iowa, and DC. Primaries in Illinois, Colorado, Utah, Oklahoma, and New York.

CW: Discussion of child sex abuse, trauma, and mental illness.

So, what am I even going to talk about? The state of the world is shit and the state of my mental health is also shit. I’m currently contending with the fact that my own mother might have molested me at an age where I was so you, I can’t consciously remember it. Yet that doesn’t seem to stop the recurring, sickening nightmares of it happening. I can’t tell my family about that though, because everyone in my family except me thinks my mom is a wonderful person, yet I can’t help but view her as toxic, gaslighting figure in my life that was largely responsible for me being the mess of a person I am today. But at the same time, what if I’m wrong about the molestation? What If I’m blaming someone whose completely innocent? And what if it means that I don’t even have a good reason to be a traumatized, perverted freak who has no hope of fitting into normal society?

CW Over

On another note, I just got done playing Omori, err the main story at least. I plan to go finish up some sidequests, and also plan to do a hikkikomori route playthrough. If you’re wondering what my thoughts are, HOLY SHIT!!!! I think this one hit me even harder than Undertale did, and I’m getting tempted to say it surpassed EarthBound as my favorite game of all time, though that decision is not finalized. I literally spent most of the 30+ hours I’ve played of the game within the past three days. Needless to say, that does not happen often.

Okay, now for the Patron shoutouts.

I’d like to thank Nora, Ciro Duran, Rana Newlove, Kino 2049, Yuster Yumeister, Cat Stedman, D Inacio, Jimbolance, Silvermoon9000, Diana Eakin, Sam, Kelly Gallagher, narumolly, IceTheRetroKid, Dia, and Rin Mari. I really would not be where I am today without your assistance, and considering the amount of stress I’ve recently been under, I immensely appreciate every amount of support I’m given, so thank you all. My Patreon can be found here if you’d like to support me as well.

Anyway, that’s about all I have to say for this update, given that I’m feeling pretty drained overall.

One thought on “Site Progress & Personal Update: July 2022 (Everything is Fucked Edition)

  1. Sucks to hear about the situation over there. Sounds like a nightmare. I bet if men were able to give birth, abortions would be done left and right. Or maybe not.
    I hate this.
    I hope things get better, though. And I’m sorry to hear about your mother. I don’t think there’s much I can say to help, so there’s that. Please take care.

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