Let me just say that last month was total clusterfuck for me, and for everyone else based on the sounds of things. If one hasn’t caught on by now, me not posting a Site Update at the beginning of a month either means I don’t know what to say, or I’m depressed and overwhelmed. I started our September with a wave of depression and chronic fatigue. I managed to combat both of these later by getting my sleep schedule back on track, and by taking multi-vitamins and drinking more water. Anyway, here is the recap of the last few months.
The Amazing VGM was specifically meant to hold over my gaming audience, because I knew fully well that I’m going to focus on politics pretty heavily throughout October. I wanted to get another game review out first, but I got sick last night and likely won’t have the energy to get the review out before I go on my trip with my girlfriends next weekend. Oh, and I finally finished the next chapter of A Goddess’s Will, and I’m looking forward to seeing how this turns out, although I have no idea when I’ll start on the next chapter.
The California Pink Tsunami piece actually longer than I expected, and it’s probably the longest PT piece I’ve written. I initially planned for it to be the last piece I cover this cycle, and I don’t even know for sure that it won’t be, but there are other states of significance. If I were to cover one more state, it would most likely be West Virginia given that my focus has been on the progressive movement, and that state could be the most significant for us. While there are other states with shit going on that I haven’t covered, it’s highly unlikely I’ll be able to cover them all in the next month.
Truth be told, I’m already pretty burnt out on politics, so I don’t know if I’ll be able to follow through creating anything, but there’s also the issue of me feeling obligated to focus on politics rather than games just because this election is so important. But then there’s the fact that I may not even be feeling the same way in a few days, which could contradict everything I say and… you get the idea.
I’ve been saying for a while that I’m simply going to write whatever the hell I feel like, and what I plan to do for October is unclear, but I do know I plan to take a pretty significant break from politics after the election is over. The only thing that would really throw a wrench in these plans is if Trump wins re-election, but considering that we don’t even know if he’ll survive Covid-19, it seems even less likely that will happen than before.
I hardly plan to quit writing about politics once Trump is out of office given how much shit we still need to fight for, but I also need to take a break, and go back to writing stuff for fun. I recently have got myself to start playing games again, since I always tend to have issues with motivation when I fall into depression, and I feel like I am regaining the spirit for game reviews that I might have temporarily lost.
And that’s good, because I am pretty damn behind on reviews I need to write. I have yet to fully decide on which games I recently completed that I plan to write a full review of, and once again, it all depends on my level of motivation. But I know for sure I want to keep going with it.
As for where I am at personally, it feels like I’ve been all over the place emotionally. Within the past few weeks alone, we had to deal with Ruth Bader Ginsburg’s death, that clusterfuck of a Presidential Debate, and Trump contracting Covid-19. We have so much insane shit going on that we don’t even have time to fully process everything before something else happens. It’s all so damn draining.
On top of that, I’m dealing with my own personal issues, such as the fact that I got sick last Saturday due to what was likely food poisoning, and was in so much pain I could not fall asleep or even get comfortable no matter what position I tried to sit or lay down in. That continued until I went to the urgent care place Sunday morning to see what was wrong, and got prescribed something to take care of the nausea. Since then, I have been gradually recovering, with exception to a brief spike in the pain on Monday that lasted for about 20 minutes until I took some Tylenol, and have been able to sleep again. But in general, I just feel tired. Not just physically with the aforementioned fatigue, but also emotionally. I’m so damn worn out, and it’s becoming harder to process all this damn shit.
Anyway, it’s time for patron shutouts. I’d like to thank Krista, Brittany Eakin, Sam Dermody, IceTheRetroKid, bluedesolation, Dia, and Rin Marina very much for their support, especially now given the economic situation our country is in. I know I say this a lot, but your support really means a lot to me and it really helps keep me going.
Things right now are… I’m not gonna lie, they are pretty shit; both the state of the world and my personal life. But it isn’t the first time things have been shit, and hopefully we’ll all power through this just like everything else.
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