I’m currently in a state of re-discovery as I write this. The past three years or so seem to consist of a pattern of me getting caught up in some sort of royally fucked up drama that’s normally reserved for true crime cases, and deciding to use what little platform I can to deal with someone that should be dealt with by the police. After I’m done with that, I then force myself to get a few normal blog posts out, and I tell myself I’m going back to consistent updates, before I realize that the aforementioned drama never stopped.

I feel like I’ve lost something in that time period. When I first started writing this blog, I did so frequently, and I did it spontaneously. I didn’t think about this, I just did it. I can chalk this up to the fact that over time, I became more reclusive, more isolated, more ashamed and scared to upon up about myself. While I am, once again, in another period of trying to get back on track towards my regular career, I was listening to a bunch of songs from my favorite and most deeply personal games. And somewhere in that shuffle, this track came up.

It was a little over four years ago that I wrote a review of this game. It is one of those games that was almost certainly a memorable experience, but didn’t stick with me the way some of my favs did, potentially just because one’s expectations increase as one grows older, and it’s harder to impress one the way they were as a child or young adult. But one thing that always stuck with me about Irisu Syndrome was its music. If anything, the music is what carries this game’s emotional weight.

When I first heard this in-game, I thought it might have been lifted from Clannad or something, but no, it’s an original track as far as I know. Every track in this game plays over what would otherwise be a standard Tetris esque puzzle game. As for this song, it’s beautiful, breathtaking. it just kinda speaks for itself, but I’m also just saying that to keep this article as an easy, spontaneous write up. The entire reason behind Amazing VGM was to have something easy, and then I just fucking derailed that with my perfectionist tendencies.

The basic narrative of Irisu Syndrome basically involves two fucked up and traumatized kids falling in love with each other, and this track perfectly fits that mood, feeling both comforting yet also sad. Emphasizing the dark, depressing world, but it’s not enough to erase the sense of warmth. I’ve always found that songs like this end up being warmer and more healing that your typical “relaxing” music, that often goes out of its way to eschew emotions or any sense or darkness. I suppose that’s just because I’m so traumatized that a lack of harshness just feel “off” to me.

Anyway, I liked doing this. I should keep doing this… I feel warm…

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