CW: In depth Discussion of pedophillia, rape, grooming, gaslighting, cyberbullying, cyberstalking, revenge porn, child abuse, DARVO, domestic violence, apologia for rape and pedophillia, and attempted infanticide. This piece will deal with some very heavy subject matter.

All claims of illegal activity are alleged.

Well, here we are again. Because none of you listened when she launched a two year long harassment campaign against a rape survivor for breaking up with her, and none of you listened when her first rape victim came forward, I get to write this. You know, I’m actually getting quite tired of articles like this, not in a resentful way, but more so that the constant emotional strain of hearing the torment that people like Milena Harirsaz put their victims through will wear anyone down emotionally.

Up to this point, we know two rape victims of Milena, one who I have given the alias of SB who I interviewed in my last article, and Robin, Milena’s first girlfriend that SB talked about in the aforementioned interview. An additional abuse victim came forward in June, who I have referred to as SC, who talked about how Milena launched a smear campaign against her partner in an attempt to drive them apart so that she could be with SC instead. If you haven’t heard about this one, it’s because I recently added it to the end of my last article as an edit. This was the plan for any other future victims, but the most recent one was so horrific and appalling that I felt the need to write a proper followup.

Milena now has a 3rd known rape victim, and that victim was a child, who dated Milena when she was 14, and when Milena was 19. Of the multitude of horrific descriptors that I can use for Milena, I can now add “child rapist” to that list. The following is screenshot of the message I received from the victim.

So, let me break this down for you. First of all, this is the third time that one of Milena’s former victims reached out to me because they Googled her name and found my writing. Do you have any idea how much she has to have fucked these people up for them to be Googling her name almost two decades after they were abused by her? The message you received is nothing more than a description of the events, one can only speculate about the day to day abuse and trauma that one occurred as a result of knowing Milena.

The next paragraph has the victim, who I will call SL (Unlike the previous two, this victim has come forward publicly, but I’d still prefer to mitigate any harassment), describing how Milena once traumatized SL so severely that she grabbed a knife to defend herself. This isn’t even just a case of rape by statute of law, it’s rape in the most traditional and obvious definition possible… of a child! It’s no wonder Milena couldn’t understand the concept of rape by deception, she doesn’t even understand “no means no!”

I also need to add that this relationship lasted for four years, meaning that Milena likely had sex with SL multiple times, and was 23 by the time they broke up. That was plenty of time to grow and mature into realizing that it’s wrong to have sex with children. I’ve met literal children who have a better grasp of consent than this! But it’s being overly charitable to assume that Milena doesn’t understand consent, she absolutely does, she just chooses to disregard it.

In the next paragraph, SL confirms that she met the first victim, SB, and corroborates her story. She then claims that Milena has plotted to poison a girl that was knocked up by one of her friends, that Milena has regularly lusted after SL’s underage friends, and sleeping with her best friends wife. The cheating aside, what do I even say? It’s like you took every horrible thing a person could do and wrapped it up into a single person. SB’s testimony was already horrifying, but it’s Saturday morning cartoon shit compared to this.

At this point, I’m genuinely scared for the safety of any of Milena’s friends at this point, including the ones who also did fucked up shit. Anyone who claims this shit is still about Poppy is fucking deranged. This shit is so much worse than anything Poppy has even been accused of. And this is the same person who has presented herself as a crusader for the safety of vulnerable people. Who goes out of her way to frame herself as this innocent cinnamon roll.

The best case scenario for Milena Harirsaz is that she stopped raping people at some point in her 20s, and her replacement is severe emotional abuse and manipulation that’s just as painful, but is also legal. But I’m struggling to imagine someone who has the personality to engage in the vile and immoral behavior who wouldn’t also engage in illegal behavior if they could get away with it. Milena’s excuse will inevitably be that she was young and immature, but she’s frequently demonstrated that her views on consent are not any different than they were when she was in her 20s. The only thing that changed is her ability to put up a more effective smokescreen, and this makes her MORE dangerous, not less!

Even if Milena has no other victims, this is the type of shit that should render you persona non grata. As a matter of fact, Milena Harirsaz is lucky she isn’t in prison right now. I don’t know what else to say, this is fucked, and I haven’t even covered my convo with SL yet.

Before I get to that, I need to disclose the fact that my convo with SL took a bizarre turn. I have already stated that SL came forward somewhere else prior to messaging me. The place in question was Kiwi Farms. Quite predictably, they didn’t believe her, and accused her of being an alt of mine. This, however, allowed Milena to get in contact with SL, where they apparently “patched things up.” Following this engagement, SL seemed quite hesitant to share anything else with me, and tried to push me towards not writing an article. I tried my best to alleviate her concerns, but it did not work. At a certain point, I explained that I couldn’t just stay silent on something this severe, as I believe that choosing to do so would be tantamount to putting others in danger. Unfortunately, SL did not seem to appreciate this, which caused her to insult me and block me.

The decision to come forward with these allegations in spite of the victim’s protests was a difficult one. There are numerous reasons as to why I arrived at this specific one. The first of which is, as I said, that the safety of other people are at risk. There is nothing to suggest that Milena has not done this to other people, or that she won’t do this to others. One has to remember, Milena has framed herself as this savior and protector of Poppy’s victims. Her goal has been to push and persuade the most vulnerable members of Zena and Poppy’s community through the use of negging and love bombing.

It’s how she managed to push former cult survivor, and former friend of mine, Dusk Noir (formerly known as Night Wyld), over to her side, in spite of the horrific abuse she put her through. One also needs to add that some of Milena’s other supporters are also quite young and vulnerable, such as Spawn and Dormiyu. All three people mentioned are also those in a position to require financial support, and Milena has made no secret of her wealth .

With this all in mind, one has to wonder what Milena said to SL in that conversation? It goes without saying that you’re going to be a bit fucked up if you willingly talk to the queen of gaslighting despite having been groomed and raped by her. It’s clear that SL was already quite emotionally damaged. This could also bee seen with her remark that her relationship with Milena was “mostly consensual,” despite the fact that 14 year olds cannot meaningfully offer informed consent to relationships with adults. Between this, the odd choice to attempt to appeal to Kiwi Farms, and a willingness to hash things out with her former abuser, SL comes across as if she’s been conditioned to mentally downplay her own abuse.

This is often the case with abuse survivors, who don’t like to be seen as a “victim” because they fear that it makes them look weak, and oftentimes, looking weak just attracts more abusers. On top of that, abusers have a tendency to pit their victims against each other, so they can keep them from uniting against them. While SL is in part motivated by fear of Milena, and doesn’t seem to believe she’s changed, she was opposed to me writing this article on the basis that she doesn’t want to be used as a prop in a war between two factions. Already, she’s been conditioned to not care about Zena or Poppy because they are popular targets for hatred, and a number of people will ignore all testimony if one defends them. The same applies to myself.

This fails to take into account that Milena’s pattern of abuse of others cannot be separated from her hate campaign against Zena and Poppy. Every abuse pattern that she’s used against her former victims is also on display here. SL even admitted herself how frightening it is that Milena hasn’t changed in all these years. And communities like Kiwi Farms choosing to support Milena is not some mistake that can be corrected, it’s built into the design. Kiwi Farms is a site built for Neo Nazis to cyberstalk and harass vulnerable people, people like this are not here to punch up at abusers, they ARE the abusers!

The logical conclusion of this type of logic is to dismiss anyone else harmed by Milena as an “imaginary victim” despite the fact that you’ve personally met other people harmed by her. It’s currently three KNOWN rape victims, one unknown cyberstalking victim, and Zena and Poppy. And this is not talking about people like Dusk Noir, who she potentially fucked up Phineas Gage style. Oh, and there’s one other thing.

Remember that bit about Milena’s plot to poison someone? When I asked SL about it, she seemed to downplay it. Yet if you read her initial post, it sure doesn’t seem like she viewed it as a joke. SL also seemed more willing to believe that Milena only fooled around with other teenagers because “it was a product of the environment, and it was more normalized back then,” as if this isn’t an especially common excuse for groomers and predators.

Depending on how much I want to read into that plot about poisoning someone, there’s a chance that Milena would kill someone if she could get away with it. Milena is a monster, and if you’re still in denial about her at this point, then there’s something fundamentally wrong with you. So many people who should have known better choose to support Milena’s deranged cyberstalking campaign against someone who I cared deeply about, and I don’t intend to let any of them weasel their way out of it now that the truth is out.

I considered trying to appeal to the better nature of people who were misled by Milena, and to give some sort of Steven Universe esque speech about forgiveness, and about growth and change. If there’s anything I learned from the past few years, it’s that this shit isn’t real. The more you extend yourself to shitty people, the more they will take advantage of you. Some people are so pathetic, that they’d rather hurt themselves to punish you rather than do anything to help themselves.

Well, look where it’s got you? Numerous people who turned on Poppy due to cowardice, now get to have their names associated with a pedophile. Let me go ahead and list them. Noehflake Kreise, Saige Alexis/Vivid Fae Garden, Gayfesh. Also be sure to add the following content creators.

Turkey Tom
Tipster
Chud Logic
Stardust
President Sunday
Sondsol
Westside Tyler
Keldoge
Luxander
Goddamit Malcom
Headbug Inc
The Marychu
Victor Burns
Rampage
NOW RECORDING

And probably about eight more drama slop creators that have been buried by the Youtube algorithm.

Just imagine you’re Poppy’s former boss who fired her based on documents written by a child rapist. Imagine you’re White Nervosa, and you disabled Poppy’s site based on documents written by a child rapist! Imagine your Dusk Noir, and you apologized for writing a document exposing the aforementioned child rapist! Imagine you’re Patchwork Heart/Dented Spork, and you disowned your own adopted parent based on a document written by a child rapist. Imagine you’re Spawn, and you lied about your parents starving you so you could now be financially dependent on a child rapist who has a creepy fixation on you!

Anyway, expect all of the above content creators to go out of their way to hide this shit, because they’d rather continue to protect a child rapist then admit they were wrong. Or maybe they have similar shit that they need to hide? And the funniest thing about it is, all you had to do was leave me and my friends alone, and no one would have known a thing.

As for SL, I believe it’s unfortunate that our interaction ended up the way it did, but I genuinely think you deserve more from Milena than whatever Youtuber apology she gave you in private. You may not realize it, but you were easily done the dirtiest out of anyone Milena has come in contact with, and I think I can confidently say that SB and Robin would agree with me. And I can’t help but feel that this disconnect regarding the severity of your mistreatment also plays a role in why I can’t just stay silent about this.

Not because Milena is some unique evil, but because there’s a lot of people like her out there who regularly get away with shit like this. People who know how to say all the right words to get normies to trust them, and to come across as genuine and caring, so that they can get vulnerable people to let their guard down around them. And people like this aren’t just good at convincing supporters, but also at getting under the skin of their own victims. Not through logic or reason, but through sheer emotional force and intimidation.

I get that going against the wishes of the victim may seem unfathomable to you, but I’ve met numerous victims who engage in self destructive and harmful behavior as a result of their trauma, and I’ve seen victims who refuse to acknowledge themselves as victims because it means being vulnerable, and they’ve learned that vulnerability is a weakness. And what I’ve learned through all of this, is that things will only get better if we look out for each other, even when we can’t look out for ourselves.

Writing this article was excruciating, for multiple reasons. First of all, I had just gotten back into the rhythm of writing regular content and getting away from the incessant war with not only Milena and her supporters, but also criminals like Cassandra Mel and Emma Bradley. Having heard the testimony of victims describing, horrifying, enraging, nightmare inducing scenarios, and being kept up at night wondering if any of these monsters will face justice. With Cass and Emma, I accomplished a rare feet of driving predators off the internet through sheer intimidation, and getting authorities involved. Considering how rarely online predator hunts actually yield results, I can feel proud of that.

Unfortunately, Milena is a much greater threat. People like Cass and Emma lack any sort of charisma, and thus exposing their actions to the public is enough. Milena however, knows how to talk her way out of trouble, and to deflect any attention by keeping her focus on a more convenient target. In this case, it’s Zena and Poppy, and potentially even myself. Milena has gone almost two decades abusing others and turning the public on her victims, and the closest thing to accountability she’s faced in those two decades, are because of me. You cannot imagine the pressure that this puts on me.

I haven’t even gone into what she did to my former friend Dusk Noir. Dusk seems to have developed amnesia regarding the time she spent in the foundation, but I remember them clearly. They were not at all like she described. She was happy, and felt safe in Poppy’s community, and felt safe in mine. I was very close with her, I was close because both of us dealt with severe childhood trauma that, to put it bluntly, made us into fucked up people. It’s so rare that I find someone I can relate to on this level. I knew she’d be perfect in my community when she said that she finds herself needing to hold back on trauma venting because it freaks people out.

I’ve met and connected with a lot survivors of severe childhood trauma, Dusk had the worst that I’ve ever heard about. The type of shit that, if it were in a work of fiction, would get it labeled “torture porn.” This brought out my protective side, and it still does. People don’t understand just how much childhood trauma can fuck a person up, it’s so much more than just “gets scared and anxious sometimes.” No, you adapt to the pressure and the pain, and in some cases, you learn to enjoy it as a twisted coping mechanism. And then abusers use that against you, to claim that what they’re doing to you was for your own good, and on some level, you even believe it, because it’s easier to just become what they want you to.

This type of abuse leads to some people going their entire lives believing that their abuse was a blessing, and to idolizing their abusers. In some cases, they even go on to do it to others. For others, such as myself, there’s the internal contradiction of sexual kinks and desires based around this abuse meaning so much to you, while also knowing how horrible they are for others. Some people can’t comprehend the idea of someone fetishizing abuse in fiction while also standing against it so strongly in reality, so they choose view my own stance against abuse as a facade to mask something sinister.

In actuality, this is why I connected with Dusk, and why I connect with so many others in similar circumstances. Because I know what it’s like, and they feel safe being their true self around me. Fun fact, Milena once told me that this was why I can always offer greater support to survivors than she can. She was trying to get me to let my guard down so she could convince me to join her, but she was telling the truth.

Dusk would eventually turn on Poppy and the foundation, and would accuse Poppy of lying about being raped and abusing her child. Of everyone in the Foundation, I tried the hardest to stop her, while doing my best to offer support and comfort during what was undoubtedly a very stress inducing and traumatizing moment for her. I was able to spot Keira and Milena’s manipulation throughout, but Dusk had embraced her new beliefs to the point that questioning them would be even more traumatizing. Eventually Dusk, blocked me out of fear, saying that she’d unblock me at some point.

Months later, she re-appeared, having detranitioned, and identified as a baedelist. I genuinely feel conflicted about this, because I consider it important to respect Dusk’s gender identity, and ultimately, she’s an adult who can make her own choices, but I’ve seen Milena manipulate and groom people far older and less vulnerable than Dusk, and I can’t help but feel like there’s ill intent. Dusk being a cis woman is not an innate problem, but considering that Dusk had despised baedelists prior, It seems as though this is done to push Dusk to embrace the opposite of what she used to be. Not to mention, it brings to mind the image of detransitioners who support the TERF movement and accuse the trans movement of grooming them, when they only wanted them to be their true self.

Considering it’s been several months, and Dusks posts are often filled with anger and hostility, and she has the focus on trying to take down Zena and Poppy, rather than trying to move on and live a peaceful life, I’m not inclined to believe this is done. Even when Dusk was with the foundation, she had a bad habit of focusing all her energy towards combating the people hurting her friends. That comment I made earlier about comparing Dusk to Phineas Gage, that’s what Poppy believes, but I have reason to suspect otherwise. Despite the fact that Milena has referred to Dusk’s previous document as the product of Poppy’s grooming, she does not seem to apply the same logic to the recent document she made accusing Poppy of grooming her into a cult. Yet another example of that abusive hypocrisy of Milena’s.

There’s also the bizarre incident where Dusk unblocked me on Bluesky to defend her friends, and to basically accuse me of harboring predators, utilizing the same “whataboutism” that every other detractor of mine uses to derail the discussion from their own crimes. She clearly didn’t expect me to have a response, because the only thing she could reply with was an awkward “L+ Ration”… on Bluesky. This is in direct contrast to how she would have endless arguments with people like Keira, and wouldn’t show this type of fear.

I can sense it, Dusk is terrified of realizing she made the wrong choice, and so she’s terrified of me. This could also be a result of Milena’s meddling, telling Dusk to not engage, because her willingness to engage with her detractors is what allowed them to control her to begin with. And if this wasn’t enough, Milena has convinced Dusk to reveal the name of her hometown, and even to bring her partner on stream with Goddammit Malcom. When Dusk was with the foundation, she was extra careful about these things, but now, she has blackmail fodder if she ever tries to leave.

I’m completely lost with regards to Dusk, because I can tell there’s this fixation on both Poppy and I, that she believes is a desire to hold us accountable, but that may actually be because she can’t fully let go of the past. It’s not just her to. The same applies to Saige Alexis, who is continuously trying to hold her own well being hostage and push Zena and Poppy more because it’s the closest thing she has to still being with them. Even Milena herself is someone who can’t let go. It’s kind of a running theme with these people.

The difference is, Saige Alexis was never close to me, and made it clear she only viewed me as an extension of Zena and Poppy (plus she threatened to sue me over mean Bluesky posts), while Dusk actually tried to maintain our friendship, and it took her months to actually attack me. Even then, I could tell she was hurt when I blocked her, but I don’t know how else to approach this, other than by reaffirming that I’m still here for her if shit ever goes south and she needs me.

Otherwise, I’m caught in the predicament where, if I engage with her, it comes across as punching down on someone more vulnerable than I am, but if I don’t engage, that hurts her because she hates being infantalized and treated like a child. The best I can do is to leave the door open, but also reaffirm she’s been kind of an asshole these past few months, and that her recklessness has allowed her to enable a horrific child abuser. Dusk is going to have to learn that her fear of facing her actual feelings and principals is going to hurt not just herself, but others as well. If we ever speak again, we’re going to be having a long talk about this, but I’ll also be very glad to see her again and will be very relieved that she’s okay.

And I’m making sure to emphasize this, because I’ve recognized the cult like tactics that Milena has used to indoctrinate others, and I don’t say that without reason. Milena has pulled people away from Poppy’s community by isolating them, and priming them to fear confrontation, while at the same time, telling them that Poppy has falsely accused her previous GF of rape and has abused her child. When she inevitably gets pissed off, they are primed to see it as proving the initial claims. Jehovah’s witnesses use a very similar strategy, where they deliberately have new recruits go door to door, so that they get screamed by complete strangers. This conditions them to view outsiders with resentment, and to trust the teachings of the cult.

It’s not a coincidence that Dusk took a long ass time to go after me, and felt quite hurt when I seemingly gave up on her. And most likely, Milena has been pushing Dusk to write some sort of document on me, similar to the one she wrote about Poppy. This serves as a means of testing Dusk’s loyalty, where they push her to burn the last bridge she has to the foundation. And she fully expects Dusk to get hurt and traumatized in the process.

Dusk was a lot closer with me than she was with Zena and Poppy. When I say we were close, I mean, we both told each other highly personal and sensitive secrets that one would rarely share elsewhere, stuff that could ruin someone. Some examples, I know the name of the gang that trafficked Dusk. I know the name she went by when she was still trans masc, and I know what she looks like. I also know certain details about Dusk’s sexuality, and I will leave it at that.

Milena has, no doubt, expected me to use these against Dusk, as she’s already used some of my own secrets against me. I’m not falling for it. Dusk can go ahead and write that document if she wants, but it will hurt her more than it hurts me. In fact, I haven’t even deleted my Discord DMs with Dusk. Well, I deleted a few of them before realizing that this would be worse for her than it would be for me. Things aren’t going to get any worse for me than they did two years ago, but this will serve Milena’s purpose of pushing Dusk into further pain and misery for the sake of a loyalty test, and to make sure there’s no way for her to go back.

I’m not giving her that. There’s nothing that Dusk can say about me that will prompt me to engage with this further, and I’m leaving the door open. I wish I could offer the same to the other people who were groomed into Milena’s cult, but that’s not feasible after everything that’s happened. A lot of you will simply need to recognize that you royally fucked up, and that some of you even enabled criminal behavior. For why I’m giving Dusk preferential treatment, it’s as I said, because she was the only one that tried to maintain a friendship with me, so this is me choosing to believe that the friend I knew is still in there somewhere. However, if that’s not the case then she’ll be worse off than I am as a result of her own actions.

Update: I’ve been informed that Milena has been saying I did RP fantasies fucking Dusk’s corpse. As I said, I left my DMs with Dusk untouched aside from a few posts in our last argument before she left the channel. There is, of course, no evidence of this, but it does demonstrate that Milena is quite literally fucking with Dusk’s memories, as she literally has stated she experienced amnesia. Oh, and by the way, Gayfesh (Tamas McCoy) also helped DemonMama and her partner groom a 13 year old over the course of years. He will be getting his own article soon.

Well, this was a bit of a tangent, but I’ve literally spent months agonizing over whether to talk about this in an article, and I figured now was the best time, since I don’t want to write about Milena anymore unless another victim comes forward. Another reason I bring this up, is to illustrate that this is personal to me, and that there are larger stakes there. I haven’t talked about everyone else that’s close to her, and her tendency to bring out the worst impulses in anyone she gets near. Milena Harirsaz is the most evil person I’ve ever met, and that’s including someone who blackmailed children with revenge porn, and someone who ran a fucking pedophile website. Justice will not have been achieved until Milena is rotting in a prison cell!

So forgive me if I think this is a little bit bigger than some internet slap fight, and that actual lives are at stake here. Personally, I’m beyond tired of this, and I never want to hear Milena’s name again. In fact, I had a panic attack when I got SL’s message, but i said nothing because it would be unfair of me to not cover it after hearing about this horrific abuse. It took me days to get in the mental state to write this article, and I’ve gone through dozens of revisions. Multiple friends have been concerned for my mental health while I was writing this. So please spare me this, “I’m only in it for myself” nonsense. If I only cared about myself, I would be focusing on game reviews right now. It’s a lot fucking easier than dealing with this!

At time of writing, it seems I caught Milena trying to do defense for another rapist. Looks like I came at the right time…

For context on Milena’s previous victims, see my previous article The Nail in the Coffin – Exposing Milena Harirsaz (NSFL)

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