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Site Progress & Personal Update: April 2020

So it turns out that I have successfully started kicking this site into high gear again, and have started putting out more frequent pieces. I knew I would get around to doing that eventually, but I did need to change the direction of the site a bit to do so. It’s becoming harder for me to prioritize gaming content when shit just keeps getting worse and worse.

I actually planned on canceling my Pink Tsunami series in favor of just doing The Weekly Bern, but I have decided I’m now doing both since I’ve actually started getting request for them, and have got an influx of followers on my Facebook page for my work with the Facebook group, TCSN – Progressive Candidate Forum.

There have been a lot of behind the scenes work for the past…. actually there have been a ton of behind the scenes shit for probably over a year now. My 2018 Midterm piece took about 3 months to put together, and I was also working on a group to mass report TERFs on Twitter for a few months until it just became clear I was taking on too much shit at once.

It was the research I did through for my Pink Tsunami series that I started learning more about politics, then I eventually discovered Secular Talk which radicalized me even further. I’ve been closely monitoring current events and elections for several months and have been compiling a list of progressive candidates running for office. In the process of this research, I have met a few other activists and have even befriended a few candidates, and this in turn lead to me working with TCSN.

Anyway some of you may have noticed there wasn’t a site update piece last month. At the time, I felt that the Super Tuesday Pandora’s Box piece was more important. I didn’t just right that for my fellow progressives, but also for myself since the election was a serious kick to the stomach. I decided to skip it since I just wanted to lighten the load, and It seems to have paid off since I’m now back in action.

I think it’s best I recap both the previous months.

February 2020

Poem #123: Layers

Poem #124: A Monster

Standard Review: Asphyxia (PC)

Illinois 2020 Elections: The Progressive Candidates to Support (Pink Tsunami)

Texas 2020 Elections: The Progressive Candidates to Support (Pink Tsunami)

March 2020

Political Rant: The Super Tuesday Pandora’s Box

The Weekly Bern (3/12/2020): Mini Super Tuesday and Ohio Progressives

Amazing VGM: 28 (Rosenkreuzstilette)

The Weekly Bern (3/19/2020): The Debate, Super Tuesday Part 3, Marie Newman.

Amazing VGM: Sin (Saya no Uta)

The Weekly Bern (3/27/2020): Joe Biden Rape Accusation, Marie Newman’s Primary Win.

So, one may have noticed that I didn’t get a review out in the month of March, and only one review in the previous month. While I have already stated that I’m currently more focused on politics and current events, I should note that I did put up one other review that I took down shortly after. It was a re-edited version of a review from 2016 I did of another poorly made hentai game about rape and incest, and I deleted it due to a mix of backlash and the fact that I just didn’t feel comfortable keeping it up.

I’ve talked a lot about how I’m not proud of the person I was prior to 2018… or even the person I was in 2018 for that matter. Over time, I regret more and more of my past mistakes, and I start to recognize that I was a… genuinely awful person. I was a total creep who lashed out at anyone or anything that upset me, which was not hard to do by the way.

I’ve already talked to death about the GamerGate/Men’s rights shit, but even having misguidedly supported that shit, it isn’t until recently that I realized how backwards my views on women were. I’m genuinely surprised I had female friends at the time, because I was absolutely insufferable. Not just in my personality, but also in the fact that I did a lot of things I did not know were creepy until I was on the other side of them.

And to be fair, a lot of this is likely mental illness related. Autistic people usually have trouble with normal social skills and knowing what is an isn’t creepy, but I’m almost willing to guess that part of it was due to being raised as a boy too. It always seems like cis men, even well meaning ones, just don’t know how to not be creepy due to the fact that they are not taught about consent and boundaries nearly as effectively as they should be, and I had to learn all of this through trial and error, and doing so meant creeping out a lot of people before I learned how not to.

The reason I bring this up in relation to the deleted review because at the time, I felt that reviews of eroge should not take wider implications about the subject matter into account, but there’s also the fact that I even bothered playing that game in the first place. The only reason I even had a copy of that game was due to an IndieGala bundle that had a bunch of MangaGamer titles, but I WAS the kind of sick fuck who could enjoy that kind of stuff back then. I didn’t enjoy it, but my open mindedness was something that is very incriminating.

With some games, you reach a point where even covering it does a disservice by giving it a platform in the first place. It’s not the kind of game I’d even bother reviewing if I played it recently, and the only reason I reviewed it in the first place was because I didn’t have that standard back then. But of course, this meant that I practically doubled the length of the review with a “Further Thoughts” section to to disavow the previous piece, which in turn defeats the point of putting this piece of drek up in the first place. So yeah, this along with some of my other past reviews will not be posted on this site.

With that out of the way, I am once again reminding you that I am not done with game reviews and that I’m still working on them. Hell I’m getting pretty close to finishing that Bayonetta review at this time. I’ve specifically started making more frequent Amazing VGM pieces to let people know I’m not done with game content, and to serve as something to hold my readers over until the next review.

Anyway, time for shout outs. Special thanks to Beverley Martin, blueDesolation, Brittany Eakin, Krysta Hunt, Dia, DNDegirl, IceTheRetroKid, Rinnie S, and Sam Dermody. I immensely appreciate the support you all have given me, and I hope I will be able to create quality content for you all for years to come. If you would like to help support this site, or help a disabled trans girl for that matter, then please consider pledging to my Patreon here.

Anyway things right now are… kinda shitty for most of us, and hopefully things start looking up soon. But let’s all keep holding on even if they aren’t. The sky always darkest before dawn after all, and hopefully this will be the dawn of a new era.

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